Since I started blogging in August 2013 loads of people have asked me why I blog. I blog for so many reasons but I’ve always struggled to give a coherent answer, because I’m not sure I completely knew the answer.
Back then the main motivator was to focus on being more positive.
I knew that if I wrote positive things down, counted my blessings & focused on being grateful for all I had then the feeling of being grateful & blessed would follow. Sometimes I think we just need to write down the things we have to make us realise just how much we actually have.
At the time I was going through a funny season in my life. I was so happy to have added to my family with Sweet Bea, but the hormones & extreme tiredness just did something to me. I just didn’t feel like myself. The usual positive, happy me just seemed to get up & go. I was replaced with a withdrawn & quite unhappy soul who just seemed to make it one day at a time, by the skin of my teeth some days.
So I guess the main motivator for starting my blog was that, to be positive & focus on all the good in my life & I’m so glad that the positive, happy me is back because of it.
The next reason was really important & key to all of this. Documenting my sweet kids in their infant days.
My brain does not retain information that well, at least it didn’t back then! So I wanted to document days in the garden, days at the park, eating a lolly on the back step & all the sweet things these kids do! I knew the years would go quickly & I didn’t want to miss the little moments that make this life with them so precious. That was another big reason I started this blog.
The other reason is perhaps the most important of all but I don’t think I knew when I started the blog that this was even a reason! I guess God knew I needed to find out who I was.
I’ve gone through my whole life being a ‘people pleaser’ & because of that I’ve never been one to confront anyone or say anything out of turn or even to really express an opinion or push myself forwards for anything, for fear of rejection or the person/people not liking me anymore.
It sounds silly because it stems from childhood, like most things like this do. But I’m an adult now. An adult who wants to be the person that God made me to be. That’s the main reason I blog now. To be the person I was born to be, free from stigma, free from the fear of rejection & free from the fear of being myself & not being liked for it.
In the process of coming out of my shell I’ve found more confidence in me than I ever thought possible. That is amazing to me.
I’d love to feel that you’re happy for me & that you’re proud of me. Because I’m proud of me & how far I’ve come. I’m also proud to be your wife, Mum, friend & daughter, I’m finally confident to be myself even at the risk of being isolated & rejected for it, & I can’t go back.
God has bought me so far forward that I couldn’t go back even if I wanted to.
This blog has been a real journey for me so far, I’ve written about anxiety, faith, cake, kids, family, trips, coffee, Cornwall, Jesus & anything that comes into my mind actually!
So back then the reasons were to document my kids & my life as a SAHM. Going forwards I guess it’s about more of the same! More of being what I believe God wants me to be. Set apart, individual, a person with a heart & a voice.
I hope that answers the question of why I blog & I hope so much that you’ll read along with me going forwards. As much as I love to encourage you I want to be encouraged too! I need that too. Please do share with me how you’re feeling, share & like my posts to tell me you’re listening, I love to hear your stories too this is a two way street, so please do share them in the comments. I want to know you.
Matthew 5: 14″You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden; 15nor does anyone light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on the lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. 16“Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.
Love you all